Purity is a singular perfection, as in a Passover lamb. My eight year-old- model had just learned that though newborn lambs are not named (since they might come to the dinner table) they are prayed over and blessed. With a resolve and a bit of secrecy she said, under her breath, "But I am going to name this one Heidi." With this tender moment we began the photo shoot--words of life and death hanging in the air around us.
Days of painting progressed well--both the lamb and girl were wrapped in loving tight arms as the rich blue apron encircling her dark garment was taking shape, holding the two together before God. There was a reverent seriousness in her, as she brought something to the composition that I had not expected, but recognized as uniquely her.
But as this work unfolded another theme was added as I painted through nights of tears and prayers for Bill Corey, a dear friend and art collector who was in his final illness. His wife, *Christine (the owner of this painting) and I often spoke, praying together for the trials ahead that would need comfort that could only come from God. The day Christine came to the studio and saw the unfinished painting on the easel, wet with my own fingerprints and tears, I faded into the background. Alone and stilled by her grief which filled the room, Christine could see that Bill was her perfect loved lamb...to be let go of; to be given back to God. Their years of fulfilled times together had ended.... but Bill's eternity had just begun.
Portrait painter John Singer Sargent's quote on his tombstone is written, "To Paint is to Pray". In our family of painters it is the not so silent Spirit of God that weaves the fabric of our paintings and poems and that will outlive us in our Art.
"Art has a way of placing something worthy in us that speaks to the living part in us that is the soul and more richly the Spirit that only God places there, Soli Deo Gloria".
Mary Jane Q Cross 2018
* Christine Corey is allowing the painting to go on to find it's next owner that may now desire the healing comfort that this painting so blessed her own journey with. 2019
The poem is a part of it all.
MARY JANE Q CROSS
Art Renewal Center Associate Living Master
The Painter and the Poet
" I Have the Perfect Lamb Lord"
Yes Lord, I found the Perfect Lamb, born the other day
without defect, unblemished, perfect in every way
Let Him be mine for a Year Lord
Let Him be mine to love
I will care for and groom him before You
Until he flies like the dove
We'll sit in the sun for hours
Laugh in the fields and play
Before You decide You need him
Please ... some long day, forever away.
By Mary Jane Q Cross BFH , ARCALM, IGOR copyright 2015
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